Sage began her journey as a singer/songwriter and actress when she was three years old and has been performing and perfecting her craft ever since.
This is her revelation about life and art.
Everything I (we) do is creation- is art- the art of creating self, life, life itself…
There is no life without art, that’s why intelligentsia and art are so intimately tied because both are endeavors in a relationship together on the contemplation of the nature of life.
We are CREATED in Gods image and he is a creator, The Creator- so too do we strive to create beauty, as He did. It’s the essence of Him and therefore it is the essence of us.
I was walking down the streets of New York City, after getting the best hair cut of my life and visiting a friends art gallery, just before the opening of a new exhibit, when this idea came to me of ALL of life being an artistic creation, and expression, if we choose to elevate our minds to the level for which they were created and allow ourselves to experience the beauty for which we are intended, instead of getting caught up in the grind, or the struggle, or the baser animal instincts that come from not taking the time to observe and contemplate. This is not to say that there is not struggle and pain, and baseness, but it is to say that we each have a choice to create in each moment or just react to it.
Life is what we create it to be and there’s always choice. The whole joy in life comes from this. In each moment you’re creating art. You choose what to have and present at the same time. What to create with a relationship, what to do with given circumstances, what to present with what you wear, how you treat yourself and how you treat others….It’s all an opportunity to create and contribute to the world in your own way.
This realization allows me to have so much more magic in my life and appreciation for even the smallest things, and helps me to take a step back from what can seem like the most difficult things, and not take them so personally but take the time to create a better moment, to use the moment I’m given in the best way possible. In my own way.
God gave us all the things in the world to play with- then told us to name them and use them and not regret mistakes or hold onto things because He will always provide and forgive.
This was a mind-blowing revelation in the idea of confidence for me…..
To be sure of yourself does not mean that you never make mistakes, quite the opposite, you probably make more!!!! It’s just that you have the peace within and wisdom to admit when you’re wrong and reorient and try again- there is no FEAR of making mistakes. You can take them in stride, forgive, reorient and move on. Worry and fear are pointless emotions to live in, and we were NEVER intended to live in them. Here’s the deal with worry and fear, they actually don’t exist, they are being created by you, in your mind. When I realized this it was able to set me free in so many ways. There are so many times when old habits of worry and fear came up because that is the natural default mode of my mind for whatever reason, but that is just my mind going to the easiest thing it can. It’s my minds kneejerk reaction to certain situations, it’s my “animal” reaction, but I am not an animal, I am a human being created in God’s image and that means that I have the choice to create each moment of my life by reorienting my mind. Therefore since worry and fear are just states that we create in our mind, that means I can take a step back and CHOOSE a different, more beautiful thought and reality which not only helps me but allows me to better contribute to those around me, creating a better world, even if only in the smallest way.
In my relationships, I cannot create someone else’s life for them, we each create our own (thank goodness) but I can- if I choose- create, a piece with them, our relationship! The creation and the humanity is in responding and not reacting.
I get to CHOOSE how I feel! No one and nothing can make me feel anything. I don’t HAVE to do anything! It’s just another artist’s opinion, and at different points of life I have different tools to work with. Everything is an opportunity to be inspired, try something out. That’s why is so important to be in the moment! No worry or fear they are worthless lies of nothingness.
ROBIN Finding Value in Insecurities
From the Washington D.C suburbs in Maryland, Robin moved to Manhattan in 1983 to attend NYU’s dance department.
How did your dancing experience influence you?
Dancing got me involved in the theater and I began writing plays. I wrote a show that lead to a bra designer spotting me. He wrote to me and said he thought I was at least a 34DDD.
Were you hesitant to speak with him?
I could tell by the note he wrote me that he had experience in the intimate apparel industry. He was looking for a body to build upon. Just as he suspected, I was fit to a 34DDD. That was 17 years ago and it’s pretty much what I’ve been doing ever since. Any girl wearing a 34DDD bra is probably wearing one built on me.
Did your new career take you away from the theater?
No way! Any creative person in New York City is doing something else for money. I have continued to write and choreograph. Fit modeling is not a 9–5 type job; it allows me to do everything I love.
Did you know anything about bras before?
It was a huge learning experience. Back then I didn’t know they made bras above a DD. It was a revelation to feel an underwire actually lifting me up as opposed to strapping me painfully to my chest wall. The biggest thing I learned was that my large breasts were actually valuable and worth something. I stopped feeling like that little ninth grader hiding behind books trying to cover her breasts. I didn’t have to be ashamed of them anymore.
You felt ashamed of your breasts?
Absolutely! Look, I was in ballet from the age of six. I went to a very strict school. My teacher was from the royal ballet. He was a tough one. I admired him and looked up to him but he would say hurtful things. It’s a strange world. I loved the discipline and regulation of ballet. There is one way to do it; the rules are set and there is no room for interpretation as far as the placement of one’s body.
There is a point in ballet when you either make it or break it at about the age of 14, when the great blossoming happens. Puberty had done something to me and I felt very ashamed and guilty about having breasts. I don’t think that it affected my dancing but when he would make comments about my body, I felt that all of me was wrong. It gets into your head. I saw it as a character flaw and felt responsible.
Was high school difficult?
Oh my God, yes! High school was horrific. There was this old Roman Polanski movie based on the Thomas Hardy novel called Tess of the d’Urbervilles. There was a line in the movie that says: “she was a victim of her own provocative beauty.” That’s how I felt; that young girls with beautiful bodies were responsible for the actions of pedophile men. It took many years of self-evaluation to get over that shame.
What helped you through that?
I had a strong-willed mother and grandmother, they gave me a lot of support and promised life would be better after high school. It took a long time but when I was finally able to move to New York it began to happen.
New York, for me, was about reinvention. Once I got on my feet and found my way in theater I was able to express and reveal myself through different avenues without actually exposing myself. I suddenly saw the humor in these ridiculous things hanging off my chest wall. I could make fun of myself before anyone else had a chance to.
What do your breasts mean to you now?
At this point they are a huge part of who I am. They are a topic of my writing, my best friends. They are probably the most noteworthy thing about me—visually, that is. My personality is not all about my tits but they have influenced who I am. After all, I am a fit model.
What is the fit process like?
They call me in for an appointment and have me try on a prototype. I make comments about it. We play around with wires and components. If it’s itchy we change the fiber that it’s made from to make it more comfortable. I have input on all of that.
Do you feel pressure to maintain your measurements?
Yes, I feel some pressure. However, I have always been a physical person so activities that help me maintain my figure are something I enjoy doing. It’s not a problem to keep these things in my life.
What challenges do you face maintaining your bust?
Well, right now its middle-age. The things that happen to a middle-aged woman’s body are uncontrollable. My breasts are slightly fuller now. It does not show on the scale but I can tell they are filled out a bit. As far as them becoming soft, I feel freakishly lucky. I hit the jackpot genetically when it comes to my breasts. They are still spectacular, despite the random stretch mark. I rub cocoa butter on them every night and use a lot of sunscreen so the skin on my chest does not break down. I do a lot of pushups as well to help eliminate as much sagging as possible.
If you met your younger self, what would you say to her?
Keep a journal! Write about your body. Or do whatever creative thing you do that can express how you feel about it at the moment and how other people’s reactions influence your self-esteem. In the future, you can look on these works of art and acknowledge how far you’ve come since then. Examining your past—even if it was just last week—can propel you forward in amazing ways.